I began last year by writing this goal for myself,

“Don’t be afraid of what people think. Don’t be afraid to look stupid for trying and failing, and don’t be stupid and let what other people think about me keep me from obeying God.”

That’s been in my journal over a year now, and guess what I still struggle with? Being afraid of what people think. However, God has really been chipping away at this in my life for the past year. I have not perfected this (as if perfection is attainable) but I am getting better.

I tend to hide. I prefer to stay in the background, to keep what God has put inside me quiet, and not seek attention. I also tend to think what I have to offer is less than, and not really noteworthy. So, with all that combined inside my head, when God asks me to put myself out there and use what He has given me for His Sake, my initial thought is to hide.

In the last several months, God has been increasingly confronting this in my life. He has revealed to me that this is not humility–it is disobedience.  (Ouch)

Not doing what God asks me to do because I am afraid of what others think or think I am not worthy to do it–is, in fact, disobedience. It’s hiding from God’s purpose in my life. It is allowing fear to hinder me from accomplishing my purpose.

Once I fully grasped that thought, it made me mad. How many times have I drug my feet obeying what God asks me to do because of these thoughts,

“Oh, I can’t do that.”

“What will people think about that?” (who are these “people” I am afraid of anyway?!)

“What if people think, ‘Who does she think she is for thinking she can do that’?”

“What if I stink at that?”

“What if I offend someone?”

I realized that all those thoughts are just roadblocks to true obedience.  I realized that line of thinking is inward focused and performance based. It’s a need to please.

God has reassured me that anything He asks us to do is to bring glory to His Name and to help and minister to others. People need what all of us have to offer. We are Christ’s hands and feeds and words of encouragement to those around us. We can’t hide that. We can’t let being afraid of what others think keep us from our purpose. Instead, we must care so much what God thinks and run after what He calls us to do, no matter what people think. Be God pleasers.

When God finds me hiding, the question I have heard Him whisper to me is, “Why are you afraid to be you?” Ever find yourself feeling that way?  I know we are all different personalities with different types of leadership qualities, so some of you might think that’s just mousy and timid. But we are all fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14) as God’s masterpiece created to do good that He prepared in advance for us to do. (Ephesians 2:10)

So again, this January I am going to write the statement that I started 2015 with and just go for it. Run. Create. Jump in and just obey God. Fearlessly running in the direction that He calls. Ultimately that means we don’t seek to get praise, but seek to give praise.

John 3:21 “But those who do what is right come to the light so others can see that they are doing what God wants.”


12 thoughts on “Hiding”

  1. Well, I THINK and KNOW that you’re obeying Him and rockin’ it out! From one over-processor to another, we will keep forging ahead and saying “yes” all the way. Love you.

  2. Powerful and full of truth. Thanks for sharing. I so understand what you mean. God has been dealing with me on the same subject and He keep giving me the words “Be Real, Authentic and Transparent.”

    Thanks you for being open and obedient in writing and sharing what He has being dealing with you on, because I know a lot of people can identify with what you are saying, probably dealing with the same issue, and need to hear this message.

    I appreciate you!

  3. Love it Casey!! You took my thoughts and fears and expressed them so much better than I could. The II Corinthians verse is my mantra too!

    1. That is such a great verse to lean on. Find myself doing that very often. Thanks for your sweet words.

  4. You know Casey, I dealt with this this weekend. The job I do I talk to alot of people. Be bubbly and extroverted, which I have no problem. I felt timid and introverted, which clearly is not me. Not sure what was wrong me, but think it was the enemy. Its a mind screw. That is NOT how God made me. But yeah, some people deal with the struggle you deal with Casey in various forms. You just keep praying, and do what you were called to do. Don’t be a people pleaser. Never works.

    1. The enemy is sneaky at how he attempts to stop us from being who God created us to be. Thank you for all your comments and support! Love you girl. Missed you today!!!

  5. Joshua 1:9 “This is my command – be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

    Great read Casey. I’m telling you this is my biggest weakness and this is the scripture God gave me. I feel like he asks me time and time again, “Why do you give people power over you? When you fear what they think, you lift them up to a level that only I should be at.”

    I only hope to emulate the same courage your are to step out and do better in this area.

    1. Wow! Thanks Sammy! Thank you for the scripture, and thanks for the encouragement. God is definitely moving in both our lives to get us to step out!

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